Embracing dream.

Hey! I should be doing my homework or either revision now, but why am I appearing on here? I've no idea too. Just simply feel like something's stucking inside my heart, &&& I feel like ranting it all out ! But... so far nothing goes smoothly as I expect. I meant, NONE. Poor me. Bloody hell. I'm stucking, feel like falling into a depth. I'm facing diffrent kind of trouble now. From top to bottom, from inside to outside.. As you know, manipulating the inner feeling isnt an easy job. You must have faith to yourself. But I, I'm not sure about that. I dont know izit I'm able to take care my everything. SPM SPM SPM SPM SPM SPM SPM SPM SPM Mom tells me this everyday. I feel stressed, really. :( I worry that I couldnt do it, I afraid to disappointing anyone. Lack of confidence to myself. Yea, probably what I need the most was Confidence. * Exam Alert! * Where's my motivation & determination ? In fact, Good in studies do mean everything. This is so god damn true. When everyone is about to watch you fall, you just have to turn around and tell them, ' WATCH ME!'. So yeaaaaaaaaaaaaa, I CAN DO IT. Sometimes I lie to myself to make myself feel better. You know? The feeling of despair is really so shit. Everyone has an angel and an devil in our mind. When devil tells you that you have got no more hope, all you have to do is convince yourself that everything gonna be all right. And so, you, yourself, is an angel. 真正的成功就是当你已经快要坚持不了的时候, 再坚持多一下下. Oh fine, I have to be honest. I guess that tragedy is reaching to me so soon. Sort of debacle, I'm mentally collapsing. Did you ever noticed?